; pure addictions

To continue, is it a want, or a need?

2010-08-04T04:29:00.003+11:00

Was otw home from bay's place just niao. Had an awkward fight. Didnt know what to say, but to keep quiet, tho many things were running thru my head. he said that I've changed. Maybe I did, but, sighs, Idk. Mhm, well what I wanted to say was, during that quiet period of time, I was thinking, if we continuing this relationship, is due to we want to continue or we have to continue? This two choices makes a big difference actually.

Do we continue, because we still have feelings, or are we used to each other. I used to thought tht our r/s were like bella & edward's. Everything felt like that, like I couldnt live without you. Everything felt right. But until problems pop out. I have no idea. Maybe we're growing up? I still love you, but compared to last year, I think th meter would have changed. So did I, last year, I was still a girl that didnt know anything bout relationships, naive & clueless. You taught me everything. Even things I shouldnt know, you showed me everything. Everything that I thought that'll happened on tv, happened on to me. Because of you. You taught me so. I really wished things were like before too, I wish I could be that girl that didnt know anything.

Maybe, whn you're clueless bout things, you might be th most blissful one. All you have to do, is give love & take love. Just that simple. But when you start knowing things, simple equation just gone like that. Because you cant accept th fact. You cant forget, neither can you forgive.

Im really tired, im gg off. Bye.
whatever it is, I love you, I still do.
I still want you so badly.

From happy, till pissed off. Bye.

2010-08-02T04:06:00.002+11:00

Another post to end my week, haha, to be exact. Start a NEW week. Mhm, bay seems rather happy in his new camp eh, hope he'll just be a good boy & finish this 1 & 1/2 year jiu out liaos, be good & things will end faster if you're enjoying / happier inside.

Mhm, FINALLY WE WATCHED ECLIPSE, gosh! We were almost late, but we made it in time. Heh, almost fought that day, but, heeeeeee, things end well luhs. Mhm, taylor lautner's HOT.
Like my boyfr, heee, need go save up & go shopshop liaos. Promised mr. Tang to get him low-v cut t-shirt that shows off his boooooobies. Heh, I h8 sch lah. Dont wna turn up for tmrw, but, bay ask me to lah. Bobian, lanlan. OHYES, I cut my hair liaos, surprisingly I didnt cry. So proud of myself.

Bay just asked me a question, *^$&%#*%&(#&%*(#&%#^*$^&*^*(#. Im gg off, bye. Nights. Feel so, sighs.

♥ IM HAPPY~

2010-07-26T04:07:00.002+11:00

Hihi, as y'all have heard, my boyfr isnt with me for awhileeeee, but! He's back (: And I LOVE ITTTTT! Be jealous girls, because my boyfr is better, cuter & sweeter niaooooo! And th sad thing for y'all is, HE'S MINE. ALL MINE. If y'all are not scared of knifes, blades or losing your life, very sure that he'll be yours, by all mean, GET NEAR.

Anw, I've spent most of my weekend @ his place. Spending quality time with himmmm, make up for th past few months. Had talks, walks & many moreee, I LIKE, I LIKE <3 Went to sentosa, for a movie, MAHJIONG, back to our dating place, FLEA MARKETTT, ( feels like old couple siol. ) & niao he's in camp & imma at home yowwww!

Cant wait for him to come out this weekend, PROMISED each other to encourage ourselves! Motivate each other for other challenges we'll face in OUR future! Anw, HAPPY 1 YR 3 MTHS ANNIVERSARY BABYYYY ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ WOAINI LAAAAAH, WO KNOW NI ALSO AI WO ONE (:

Not a long post, but I need to go sleep because my 宝贝邓猪先生 is nagging at meeee (:
BYEEEEEE! <3

我喜欢你！你听到了没?

2010-07-17T06:57:00.003+11:00

I like you. I like th way you hold on to me. I like th way you make me laugh after every quarrel. I like th way you care for me. I like th way you bring me around proudly. I like th way you praise me in every & any way. I like th way you hug to bed all th time. I like th messages you sent me everynight in th past. I like th way you cheat my feelings in small matters. I like th way you give me small surprises. I like th way that you sing songs to me. I like th way you coax me back into your arms. I like th way you make effort to do things for me. I just like everything about you. THIS IS NOT MY BLOG ANYMORE. ITS OURS.

Im listening to you & say ours. Not mine, not yours anymore. But, OURS. Though I guess for now we've to seperate, even though you're out. But, I've choose my path and gotten my priorities straight. Study is what I need now, you cant take care of me forever. I need to work, I need to learn independence. I believe I've learned some while you're not by my side. All th insecurities, all th tortures, all those day without seeing you. I really believe that you'll change, for me. Like you said, but I guess it's just a matter of time, or a matter of person. I cant let you go, neither can I set myself free. I want, I want everything so badly. But I guess, I was so desperate for my "everything", I forgot to see what was th everything I wanted so badly. If you love me, understand me, you'll know what I took this path. It isnt easy, but I'll hold on. And wait for a day that you've change totally and no more excuses.

我受了伤，一个疤痕很深的伤。
心病还需心药医。
I cant say that Im alright now, from all those that you've given me.
我，现在要走。可能，是一个借口，或许是一个理由。
Many things are better left unsaid.
You'll never understand how I felt all these time.
All I can ask, if for you to understand and let me off.
This once, if you really love me, you wont let me stay in this agony.
我的梦，狠狠碎过，却不会忘。
你的过错，永远都会在我的记忆里。
除非，我失意。否则，我很难忘。
I'll just have to talk to you.

2010-07-02T04:31:00.002+11:00

whn I feel you, you're always in pain. whn I think about you, im always in pain. I wanna let go, 就算我的心又多不甘，不舍。I know you cant, neither can I. But we'll just have to let each other go. If you need me, and I need you. Fate wont be so cruel to us, fate will bring us back to each other. I promise. Something on th left side of my body is really aching. I really need you here. If you really love me, you'll take th time of th world to change, no matter how long it takes. If not, you can continue your scavenger hunt outside. But, its really nice to know that I was once your precious treasure. Maybe, if you find your real precious treasure, that'll be where your heart is. Someone, that can control & tame you down. Someone that melts your heart, once she cry or whatever.

Fake or real.

2010-07-02T04:14:00.002+11:00

I can fake a smile, I can fake shit out of everything everyone said. But I just cant fucking fake th fact that I really really liked you still. If you ever see this post, please please, get a grip of yourself. For me, for jermaella. Many things were said, many things to answer, many chance given. But I choose to walk this path, a path that leads me far away from you. Im sorry.

When Im free.

2010-04-09T03:18:00.002+11:00

HEYYYYY!

1. Its been ages since I last blog. And, much has happened after th last post. Im really, really, really sad. ):

2. Back to school things. Hmm. Things are just getting out of hands for certain people, facing certain troubles.

3. Me, in school. I dropped FNN, yay? Hmm. Less trouble, less stress, less criteria to get into poly. Im still th same, slacking around. Got no motivation to study sia. Sighs.

4. I need to perk myself up, I need to change blogskin, I need to study, I need to write letters & I need to buy stamps. Ahah.

A idiot like me, doesnt know how to purchase stamps. Ehheh.

Bay, what happened?

2010-03-23T22:33:00.002+10:00

My boyfr's in DB. Im relatively sadddd, not mentioning I got 'picked' on during english & made repeating myself non stop. Sucks ttm. anw, Im off with homework now. Toodlezxc.

THIS IS FOR YOU.

2010-03-21T04:54:00.002+10:00

Idk what to do with us. Seriously. So you think a sorry can bring everything back? Now, my turn. SORRY, things dont work this way anymore. What I did yesterday, you find it ridiculous. Tell me now, how bout yours? I find it EVEN MORE FUCKING RIDICULOUS. You know why? Because its on the fucking day we BROKE UP THAT YOU TEXTED THAT FUCKING BITCH THAT IDK WHO SHE IS. Whats wrong with you? First, whn youre with me, you cant stop playing with your phone. NOW, MY FUCKING FACE TURNS YOU ON TO GET ANOTHER GIRL? Thanks dude, thanks. I should've known, i should've have see it coming. I FUCKING BRING THIS UPON MYSELF. I shouldnt havve given you so much trust. You know what's th contradicting thing? Im th one with freaking less trust, yet Im not th one doing such things. I gave you so much trust, yet, I get this back. Like, seriously, thanks ttm. Dont just use words to makeup for everything. Ever since th first incidence, you've been saying things. And yet girl's msg & calls still continue. You know what, if youre really not feeling it anymore. Just go. Stop holding on to my life, telling me you love me now, and next minute, you're forwarding th same msg to other girls. And you know what, Im th one that's been spending this fucking 11 months period with you, and yet I just another girl to you. Since other girls is so much xin ku than me right? You can go, with them. I dont need someone who can just break my heart like that. IM NOT GOING TO BE THAT STUPID GIRL THAT SHUTS MY OWN FUCK UP TO A GUY DOING THINGS LIKE THIS TO ME AGAIN AND AGAIN. THIS TIME, I AINT GNA BREAK DOWN LIKE THIS. ESPECIALLY WITH WHAT YOU'VE DONE TO ME YESTERDAY. REMEMBER WHAT YOU'VE SAID.

LADIES & GENTLEMEN, WELCOME SHERMAY CHEN LIRONG. TYVM.

SUCKDICK.

2010-03-21T04:29:00.001+10:00

why do i have such a bad relationship? Why do things like that has to happen on me? I hate me life. Remember what I said bout perfect family, perfect boyfr, perfect life. Yall know what? Totally bull shit. Yeah, thats me. Bye.

FUCKOFF.

2010-03-19T02:26:00.002+10:00

You know what, I feel so terribly wrong bout myself. I hate myself. I hate my family. I hate my life. Its a mistake that I thought I was really blissful. It just turned out to be a lie.

A fucking lie. I hate everything now.

Never thought it'll end this way.

2010-03-17T04:24:00.003+10:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

15th

Went to Romp V with bay, donovan, jason & charlotte. Hmm, rather crowded but still manage to get it. Kinda fun yet boring haha.. Had mahjiong in th afternoon, lose like fuck. Haha, but nvm, bay still manage to cheer me up.

16th

Went to bay's houuse to wake him up.. BUT! Failed, ): Went to slp with him instead, hahah. Loser sia, me. Hmm, thn went for lunch at meiyan and sent him to camp. Thn, went home. Meet JieJie tgt with mommy at ION, thn went to find my brother-in-law for dinner. Saw this fucking chio mac book sia, sighs, too late to say anything now. Heh, thn went to eat at seafood harvest, kinda filling lah. Had OYSTERS! Yumyum! Mom wanted to go home, sis came up with idea of gg to shebang to drink, thn we headed thr.. Didnt manage to text baby all th way, my fault ): Thn drink, smoke.. Till now thn reach home. Something happened in between, trying to not make a fuss, not throw temper or anything bout it.

YOU!

Im really trying hard not to cry, not to lose my temper, not to think of anything. But I cant, all of th things i can think of now, is you. I miss you. I miss your smile. I never wanted you to go, wanted to stay in your arms, having you to hold me, forever. But, I guess, forever will never come, since we're so against each other's ideology. Thanks for this whole 10 months plus, what I have to say, i said. I nvr wanted you to go, but now, idk. Now, no one is in our way, saying we're not meant to be, and yet we're doing this to ourselves. If I knew this was gg to happen, we shldnt have even patched back ever since th first fight. i shld have known, more fights are gg to end us up this way. Im gg to malaysia tmr, it might be th best for me to cool down and chill. Should be feeling happy for you, not needing to take care of me, stay with me and many other things. If bye, is th only thing you can say to me now. Im sure, I can do th same as you and let us go this time.

ITS MARCH HOLIDAYS!

2010-03-14T05:34:00.002+10:00

OMG! It's sunday! 0336 am nnowwwww!

1. Manzx's at perth.
2. Im not slpy.
3. Maybe gg to m'sia w baby.
4. I need to bath.
5. I scared tmr very tired.
6. Birthdayyyy!
*7. MALAYSIA TRIP ON WEDNESDAYYYY!

The rest = %&^$%#*^(() = HOMEWORK..

Boring weekend

2010-03-08T00:29:00.003+10:00

YOW!

Im here to blog. Feel kinda tired.
This weekend is only kinda boring.

Friday!
We were quarreling since th past few days. BAD QUARREL. Was actually at a stage till it couldnt be fixed. Had prepared for th worst, cos he didnt text me th WHOLE day. Kinda angry, before training engaged into a quarrel again. Thru out training, climb up nd down to check my phone. NO MSG still. Thinking that everything's over. Texted him to say i'll bring his things over to his place, but he rejected me though I insisted. In th end, no words of patching. But, action shows it all (:

Saturday!
Mahjiong th whole day sia. No life. Haha. Suppose to go play ball in th morning. But, old man tang woke up too late. haha. End up I delivering breakfast to him. That lame shittttt, (:

Sunday!
Suppose to go jog in th morning, thn swim. But, I was too late, so he went off without me. Hee, nd swimming.. We woke up too late.. So end up he went for bball, thn slack awhile jiu he need book in liao.. I was suppose to send him back, but he didnt insist. Cos i keep kp I very very tired. Haha. So cute uhs, me (: wahahaha!

Baby's booking out on tuesday! Yay! he's on course, woooohooooooooo! Cant wait, tho there'll be disruption of my weekday plans. So much to say, but dont know how to! ): Anw, its lateeee! Im gg off! Byeeeeee (:

Gradually ..

2010-03-05T00:15:00.002+10:00

some people say.

I shouldnt be with you.

Because you dont deserve me.

They say that I shouldnt believe.

That, baby with you.

That, every single day is brand new.

But.. I aint going no where.

Im staying right here.

Its the right idea.

So right, for my baby.

Always want to be with you.

& I dont wna change you.

Love every little thing you do.

& I dont wna change you.

Dont want to say goodbye.

& I dont wna change you.

As long as you dont change your mind.

There's always you & me.

2010-03-04T23:54:00.001+10:00

Let no words bring me down!

Gambatte!

2010-03-04T23:37:00.001+10:00

I've nvr heard of such nonsense.

Say ILOVEYOU also need permission.

No matter what. Im going to continue!

Stay happy! Not angry. Not pissed! BUT, HAPPY!!

Goodluck! (:

Small stories that'll change a couple's life.

2010-03-04T23:07:00.003+10:00

Heyy all! Found this in my email, find it reallyyyyyyy cool nd good for r/s!

( translated into english, myself )

2 types of husband, 2 types of different lives.

Eg. A

Her: Hubby, would you mind fetching me a cup of water?

Him: Lets play scissors paper stone, loser gets the cup of water.

Her: Forget it, I'll get it, myself.

Eg.B

The couples were at home, watching drama series tgt..

Her: *Gets up*

Him: Where are you going?

Her: Get myself a cup of water.

Him: Sit down and continue the show, I'll go get it for you.

Girls are just poorthings. The only thing they expects from guys are just to dote on them. As long, as you can dote on them the right way, no matter if you are poor, ugly, they will still give you their hearts and stay with you forever.

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Eg.A

When the guy knocks off from work & give the girl a call..

Him: Hey baby, I'll be having dinner with my friends later on.

Her: Didnt you promise to go shopping with me?

Him: I'll go with you, another day when Im free, alrights?

She, teared silently. Why does it always have to be that way?

Eg.B

When the guy knocks off from work & give the girl a call..

Him: Hey baby, my colleague gave me a ticket to the soccer match tonight, its a rare chance! I'll be going to watch the match tonight, okay?

Her: Oh, is it? Okay then.

Him: Why sound so sad? What's wrong?

Her: Oh, you forgotten that tonight's dinner, we will be having with my friend and her boyfr, they'll be buying us dinner.

Him: Oh yeah, sorry my dear. I totally forgotten bout it. I'll give the tickets to someone else and I'll go accompany you for the dinner.

Her: Its alright, we can have the dinner another day. You can go for your soccer match, or we will wait up for you.

Him: NO! The things I promised, I'll do it, besides, you look like an extra next to the 2 of them during the dinner. You'll really feel uncomfortable..

Her: Nah, its really.....

Before she could finished, the guy insisted on picking her up and going to the dinner with her.

Girls are not inconsiderate, they just need to be with a guy that's much more understanding. Actually, between a couple, its not really give and take anymore.

Like my stories? There's more to come. I'll continue with th rest tomorrow or another day.

Toodleszxcv (:

2010-03-03T19:02:00.002+10:00

You look into my eyes and I get emotional inside.

I know its crazy, but you still touch my heart.

After all this time that you think I wouldnt feel the same.

But, time melts into nothing. & nothing hasn't change.

2010-03-03T18:58:00.000+10:00

A late resolution

2010-03-03T18:33:00.002+10:00

I want you to love me.

I want you to miss me.

I want you to need me.

I want you to know me.

I want you to be with me.

I want you to understand me.

I want you to TRUST me.

Please, dont let me wait too long.

You presence, is an absence of yours to me.

2010-03-03T17:59:00.003+10:00

what is love?

It is accepting.

Have you accepted me?

No.

Why not?

Because you cant accept my family.

Because you cant accept my friends.

Because, you cant accept the fact that, this is who I am.

The reason why I act this way. The reason why my attitude is like that. The reason why I do things this way.

I AM.. YOU ARE..

- Childish. -Kiddy.

-Nonsensical. -Bad tempered.

-Irritating. -Insensitive.

-Bad tempered. -Inconsiderate.

-A push over. -A full of yourself.

-Mad bout you. -Alot more that I cant think of now

-Angry at you.

I CAN BE.. YOU CAN BE..

-Nice. - Really nice.

-Sweet. - A much better guy.

-That small girl. - A lot more better boyfr.

-That understanding girlfr.

I CANT BE.. YOU CANT BE..

-The girlfr that you want. -That understanding boyfr.

-Perfect. - Alot of other things that you think you can.

Down to conclusion.

I CAN, accept everything and anything that you can nvr accept.

I just, LOATHE you now. But, I know th loathing, it'll nvr continue.

There will always be a person that you'll say ILOVEYOU back, if they said it to you.

No matter, how long has it passed, or how bad they've treated you.

& that'll always be you, bay. You.

Many words to say. But, I just cant express it.

Its soon to be over, because I can feel it.

Your tone, my reactions.

Your word, my feelings.

Your heartache, my heart break.

As much as I've loved you, accepted you, made you happy, letting you have your way.

It'll never be my turn. Because of that sub-concious you have, in you.

Since my life is so, dramatic already.

Why cant th show, Summer's Concerto's drama.

Be th drama that's landing on me?

My only strength. That simple 3 words.

2010-03-03T16:13:00.002+10:00

#1
Finally, Im blogging!Yay <3

Gotten myself a laptop ytd! HAPPY x128245865290456924568248 TTM! Nd not fogetting, my 2ndhand iTouch! Its alright luhzxc, but just cant put in games ): So sad luhszxc. Im starting all th "zxcv" words again. Cannot tahan myself.

I feel so, irritated, sad, pissed, mad, angry, sad, irritated, did I mention sad & irritated yet? Hmm. Everything just suck. Is it really my fault? Just feel like cutting everything off. I dont see whats my problem. I really dont know. Its like, urghhhhh. Nd if, im really not a good girlfr, then you're no where a better boyfr. You're, just not a boyfr material. I swear, you're just gna yell at me after see this post. Aiyuhs, just wtv. Fyi, I dont post such things for no reason.

You can yell, and yell, and yell, and yell, and yell at me. Until a day, whn you dont have to. Because, its too worthless. Whatever others tell you bout me, you just dont understand and will nvr listen, just like what im doing to you now. 10 months already. Nothing changed from th first quarrel, th first big fight, the first everything. I did my best, if you believe or not. But, I guess you'll never do.

& so Ive nd will wait for you.

with just 3 words as my strength.

JuyeeJermaellaTangLiJun.

2010-02-24T18:23:00.004+10:00

happy new year allllll ;D

Haven been updating ehs, hee.

what do th world wna know? Hmm.

School's rather busy. My relationship's rather terrible.

I've gotten name for my lil girl (: Not confirmed, cos her daddy say its weridddd.

Like, whatever. Haha. & I miss her a lot a lot, I hope that she'll watch over her mommy.

& know that her mommy misses her really much. If she's ever out, I hope she'll be fillial to her mommy only. Hahah :D

Oh yes, her name is .. Juyee - Jermaella Tang Li Jun.

How it sounds? Cute? Really missed her.

Went passed a young mommy's blog, saw something, brought it back.

wna share with my world.

went to the doctor.

doctor said congrats, you're pregnant.

Am i suppose to be happy or sad?

felt lifeless at the moment.

Did consider whether should you know or not.

My heart was totally dead at that moment.

But when I came to think that the baby was our love.

i felt really happy.

No words can express how much I wanna keep this baby.

But I know, if I wna keep this baby, I'll have to suffer.

But when I think of you, nothing matters as long as you're with me.

In the end, th baby was born. She had a happy life, at least it seems so on th blog.

She seems rather happy, nd Im really envy.

Many things had happy from th last day of last year, till 2010.

I may seem happy. But none of yall will know how this heart is dying inside. Just bit by bit.

Lil' Juyee.

Mommy misses you alot.

She really does. She hopes you feel so too.

She's really sorry that you're not with her, this moment, this minute.

She just dont want you to suffer, with her.

She has so much to say, but you just cant hear it anymore.

You'll always be in her heart, kay?

Many many promises, I wanna give. But, th heart is not there.

Anymore.

Imissyou. Ireallyreallydo.

I just dont know if you do.

Im really hurt, big time.

2010-01-20T20:56:00.005+10:00

Im feeling, so down, so down.
So much had happen, i've got no idea how to carry on.
Am I too lenient? Is he going to change?
Too many questions already. What am I going to do?

Im not shy to share, Im not afraid to talk about it.
Ive done so much, hurting my body, sacrificing my body.
Sacrificing my family, my time, my freedom, my friends.
All of my priority, nd wht I get?

Ive lost th most precious thing that could have happened to my life.
Because he is not capable enough. Is my stubbornness bringing me some whr?
Is this th right choice? Am I, just gna stay like this forever?

Ive lost my confidence. Im no longer th girl I used to be.
Im so different now, I can hardly recognise th girl in my reflection.
Idk. Is all of this, correct?

Ive never doubt myself so much, for th first time, I really dont know wht to do.
Th first time, drama landed in my life.

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

逃不开爱越深越

互相伤害越深的依赖

越多的空白该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂

我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

曾为他相信明天就是未来

情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望

我的心深深伤过却不会忘

我和他不再属于这个地方

最初的天堂最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾又怎么样呢

伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来

若那一刻重来我不哭

让他知道我可以很好

haiis.

♥ all i wanna be with you.As long as you dont change your mind, there will always be you & me.

2009-12-24T02:03:00.003+10:00

Im here to blog, long time since th other post.

I cant even think of wht to say. Tmr's my last day of work, woooo.. Dont need see sherleen's face. Heh. But i'll still go back with my boyfr to visit my cute nd nice colleages. (: Tmr take pics with thm, nd show. All th joke nd funzx in MUJI (: Work's been stressful, tiring, dreadful nd slpy for me. But tmr's last day, kinda sad but happy still. Whn will my pay come out?! 0.0

Just put down phone with boyfr, talked for a very long time, bout our thoughts nd things inside, dk how we'll end. Hopefully good, this weekend will be th longest ever.

♥ Have you ever quarrelled w someone really bad, nd once you see thm. All u wna do is run into their arms nd just give them a peck on th face, hoping everything will go away?

♥ Have you been thinking bout someone th whole day, hoping they'll appear on their own giving u a surprise?

♥ Have you day dream bout how your life will be like, when you have kids with th one you've been thinking? How will it turn out, will your life be screwed, or th best ever?

♥ Have you thought that. All that you've done, was just too much? Too much tht they dont get it, or cant digest it?

♥ Everything, will be just fine with you nd me around.

2009-11-29T01:04:00.002+10:00

Hellooooooooooow!

Imma here to blog yoooo! (: Curently at baby's house. Wahahaahahah. Just finish a long day outside. Quite fun lah, went to SGH for some personal family things, thn met baby got pearl's centre, but th place we wanted haven open yet.. Sooo, went to feed bay his breakfast, BK's XXL burger. Haha, took few bites even tho ate yongtaufooo before tht, nd desert lah. Sianzxc. Super mega full sia.

Thn rmbed tht.. TODAY IS TH SNEAK PREVIEW FOR TWILIGHT SAGAAAAA! Damn excited. Stupid de me still think is some other shit things. Thn baby explain to me wht sneak previews are. Hahah, dumb me. So went to vivo nd get tickets nd wait for ahyi, tht old lady. Wlao eh, buy ticket 12 plus, for th show at 3.30, th slot at 3 is FULL! Damnit. But still got to watch lah, it sucks. Haha, dont go watch. Th bloody ending stinks. Zzz, thn got myself th twilight books to read all over.

Read th first few page at unclebob's shop, thn fell aslp.Wahahah, super tired lah. Thn wake up liao, chit chat till 9 jiu left go back bay's house. Idk wht I ate, but it made me felt nauseous. On cab th vomit want come out alr sia, quickly pounce out of cab once reach nd vomit some beef food i ate during movie. ): Sian half sia. Thn keep burping. Haha, bay cooked noodle, but didnt eat at first, thn lie thr like dead liddat. Hahah, ate his last mouth of noodle.. Thn finished all his soup. Bay cook de, jiu shi he cook de. Everything taste so nice (:

Thats all for today bah, had a FANTABULOUS day afterall.

(: Yay. But oldman tang is booking in tmr ):

Need see him need wait, sianzxc.

I'll blog again soon!~

Toodlezxcv. Muahhhhh

Ilovehim deepudeepu (:

2009-11-28T04:40:00.002+10:00

YELLLLLLLLLOWWWW! Im here to blog yowww!

Was suppose to blog ytd night at baby's house derh, hahahah. So many things happened yet, watch ANTM ytd with him. WALAOOOO EH >:( th TEYONA girl won, was expecting Allison to win tho.. hahah. Didnt watch they final walk, cos he was watching HOTSHOTTT. Zzz,

Went to gongong's house to play mahjiongggggggggg. SOOOOO FUNNN. Yima ask us go back more often to accompany gonggong. Haha. Elaborate other times. Gtg now! Webcamm-ing with my baby now. Haha, so cute lohs. Took a photo with my phone. Upload other times (:

Im running out of time now. Blog some other times!

Toodlezxcv/.!

Ilovemybaby! Muahhhhhh (: <3

Cant wait,

2009-11-23T03:01:00.004+10:00

elloellohihi (:

Omg. Today was like, F.U.N! Gotten my first BIGGEST STITCH, IN MY WHOLEEEE LIFEEEE! Its like, HUGEEEE! Wahahaha. Cost.. ( secret ) Hehe, did something reallll bad sia, for tht stitch. But I feel damn good getting after everything happens. Haha.

Anw, Mr. Tang booked in alr, today. Left house bout 7 plus 8. Sianzxc to th max, thn carry a bag of clothes nd th biggie stitch to take bus ( save moneyyy! ) Alight th bus, got this crazy girl keep screaming stitch to her friend. Totally exact thing i'll do whn I see tht too, ahaha. But too bad, im th one tht's proud now. Not th jealous one, haha (:

Making new couple blog fo me & baby! Wahaha, gna surprise him whn he book out. Hope he books out sucessfully on thursday, thn have mahjiong session on FRIDAYY! Woohoooo, with his family. Hahah. Hope i'll get a job soon, tht'll have off day on tht day (: Nd go fo a mahjiong gameeeee! (:

Actually, I cant wait fo CHRISTMAS. Keep thinking bout my presents, wahahah. Confirm I want extensions nd hair curler one, CONFIRMMM. Baby's gna kill me, if he sees tht presents. Heh, doesnt like me improving my image. He thinks its useless!? (@$&*^%&$#@ Whtever. Apperance is th most important thing whn u're outside. Hah (: A sentence Ive been believing in. (:

Im gg to bed now, muahhhh.

Just friggin quarrel with him cos of pregnancy!

Wlao eh, nonsensical, right?

Whateve. Im gg to aunt's hse tmr.

May not blog as often..

Bye, muahh. Nights.

LONGGGGGG post.

2009-11-20T12:31:00.004+10:00

SUPPPPP!

Haven been blogging eh, hehheh. Was over at my sis' houseeee, for th past few dayyyys. Haha, almost went crazy taking care of kiddddds. Cute, but insane uhs, her kidddds. Zzz, nd wayyyyy before that, me nd baby went to Cathy nd watched JENNIFER"S BODYYYY, I think I blogged bout tht, right? Whatever luhzxc, but it was still freaky nd scaryyyy lohs. Damn it, I hide behind baby allllll th time. Super scared luhzxcv, hahah. After that, cant stop thinking bout tht damn show. Watched it, main cause of Meghan Fox, thn?!! Turn out so fxcking scaryyy. Zzz.

Anyway, th next day ME, BABY, nd MSFATFAT ( his younger sister. ) went to SENTOSAAAAAAAAAA... Thn few days later, we went out AHYEEEEEEEE(s) aiyaaaa, only 2! Haha, anw. Went to town for movie : 2012, ANOTHER FXCKING SCARYYYYY MOVIEEEEE! But its just th effect lah, some part damn saddddd, nearing th end, was th bloddy climax, nd I was holding baby's to cover my eyes. Haaahah, so I couldnt see how one of th guy die. Thn was figuring things out after th movie. Some parts quite no sense lah, no link. Hahah.

After that, he went to meet his PO, to get his probation card, th ending one. Haha, he was damn happy. Thn got 1 sunflower, I hint him to give me! Hahah! Thn th sunflower is stil aliveeeee, at his kitchen. In a maggimee cup. Haaah, He keep saying he free man le, so dumb right? But cute still lahhhhh, go back home. He wanted go shoot hoops with POA derh, but we rushing. So go home, rest rest, smoke smoke. Jiu go off liao lohs, back to SUNTECCCC, for dinner. With my AHYEEEEE(s), wanted to makan steamboat / buffet, but cant find nd cant decide. SOO! Smart & clever me suggest go to th highest floor to makan, thn finally decide on KUISHINBOOOOOO. Fxcking shiokkkkk, th food thr is like, totally FANTA-BULOUS! Thn wanted go walk walk find my early christmas present derh, but like shitzxc, cant find a single shit. Thn jiu cab back home liaoooo. Kinda tired nd fun luhs, tht day! (:

Next day, we quarrel ): Until damn damn damn fxcking jialat. Just a tiny winy pinch jiu almost break liao. Tmd, quarrel at 2 am plus, thn went down. Continueeeee, but still after that, we made up lah. So, idk. We're as good as before nowwwww! Hahah, be jealous lah! Those girls tht like him, bahhhhhh! Fxck off, he's mine, ALL MINEEE, FOR GOOOOOOOOD! Wahahahahah..

Anwayyyyyy, I cant stop thinking bout christmas nowww! I want so many things, nd he promised meeee everything bout tht day, except makeup ): Aiyoooo, abit sad lah. But okok lohs, used to it alr. Hahah, nowwww he is back in his sickening camp. Jialat sia. Investigate shit, btw. He got a 5 day mc, till mondayyy. This investigate thingy is taking my time. Damn long siaaaaa, I wna eattt! Shall think of wht to get (:

BYE ALL, shall update another day!

Muahhhh, hahaha.

Going to fetch him noww (:

PROUDDDDDD

2009-11-13T00:16:00.003+10:00

YOW! Im here yo blog yow! Im having so much fun w baby these few days, NOT A SINGLE QUARREL AT ALLLLLL! So proud, y'know! Hahaha.

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Went out with baby! Went to vivo, to get $$ thn makannnn, super duper wuber long nvr eat th chicken rice thr, so he brought me thr to makan, go walk walk around, its damn shocking! He followed me everywhr, allowing me to do hell loads of things, liked it.. But doesnt seem like wht he'll let me do, anywayyy chitchat bout sooooo many things. Thn went over to dhoby t meet a hairless turtle, a monkey, a bird, his golden couple nd a quiet guy. Had fun chit chatting, didnt manage to walk round ps, but still had fun. Thn we went to watch JENNIFER'S BODYYYY, its freaky like omg. I cant stop thinking bout tht show, its damn scary, I swear. $7.50 ticket, I think I watch $6.50 of it. Haha, thn after th movie, couldnt stop talking bout th show, if jennifer was manzx, wht would happen. HAHAH.

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TODAY WAS TH BOMBZXCZX. Went to SENTOSAAAAAAA, w baby nd his sister. Tho it was sorta raining, but its was like, THE BEST everrrrr. I ate something I nvr did before, nd I got buried under th sand. Mega funnnn, saw CARIN, JASMINE, JAZZY th angmoh thr. Wanted to throw angmoh down th water, but.. plan failed, zzz. Thn it became throwing me & meimei down. Fun much, first time meimei went t sentosa, promised to bring her go see underwater world, nd dolphin next time. Muahahaahhahaha.

AIYAAAA, I still got no job. Im damn poorthing, zzz, I need a job laaaaaaaah. Help, anyone? ): Guess i'll edit later, moreeeee at home. Its thursday night, cannot tahan. Baby dont want let me watch ANTM, zzz. Im gna go kill him now, toodlezxc. (:

2009-11-05T23:34:00.002+10:00

here ta blog on moi laopo's acc!!!
i'm out!!!!
ta pei moi laopo.
did alot of tings to get out of camp ta get ta c her.
really wan her ta noe how much she meant ta mi.
i can die for her sake.
ta do anyting just ta c her and have her by moi side.
can do alot of tings wif her around.
hope she's happy ta have mi ba.
since she noe tat i really can cuz of her and die.
did alot of tings.
being confined in e toopid camp for e past 3 wks.
miss her like crazy.
wanna hug her so tight till she cant breath but also cant.
cuz she'll die of breathless.
but i'll hug her super tight de nor.
moi first dae of hospital was fun,weird,happy,sad and filled wif alot of emotions.
e moment i c her moi heart just melted.
it just dropped to e ground.
i realise watever i did was worth it.
becuz she's here ta be wif mi.
she's e first.
to reach mi.
even faster than moi sgt whose wif mi all e while.
hug mi real tight.
moi tears just shot down.
cuz i finally got ta c her after so dame long.
didn't wan ta change.
didn't wanna stay in e hospital.
she was there ta comfort mi.
sayang moi childish attitude.
after tat bring mi ta e toilet ta change.
went into e same cubicle ta change ;)
guess wat happen next??
and then went ta e bed ta wait for e toopid doc.
second dae was same.
she stayed till no one was left.
long pass visiting hour.
even inbetween visting hours.
she was there for mi all e while.
feel so good.
whenever she's next ta mi.
she stayed wif mi.
angry wif mi.
laugh at e funniest and lamest things tgt.
e best was e ge shan da nue.
it's a secret between mi her and moi sister.
whahhaa.
got a 7 daes mc.
till e 13.
just hope moi camp won't be bas**rd enough ta stay mi in camp.
so tat i can have alot alot time wif her.
i'm now at home and she's just next ta mi staying over tonight!!!!!
so happy!!
but tml morning i've ta go back camp ta pass moi mc ta moi camp medical officer.
ok nah.
tat's all for now.
and a very special msg ta her.
I LOVE U MORE THAN WORDS CAN XPLAIN!!!!!

因为他是我的太阳!

2009-11-02T03:25:00.002+10:00

世界很大爱情开始有了想象
遇见了他开始闪亮每一天都晴朗
爱的相框部落格里专属密码
所有心事都对他讲
因为他是我的太阳

我的爱微笑多过泪光
快乐多过感伤
你让我学会飞翔
你是我第三个愿望
我的爱挂上雨天娃娃
你会偷偷换下
你说你不让我受伤
保护我从天亮到星光

东京铁塔或去爱丁堡的流浪
你陪着我没想太多下一秒就出发
爱心便当里面装满我的梦想
你握紧的我的手上
有一颗心写满向往

thts wht i feel, stop drugging urself, kay?

I loveyou. I hope you feel tht way too, kay?

你把永恒画上了翅膀
我们越飞越高就是爱的魔法

我会耐心等候 ;

2009-11-02T02:53:00.002+10:00

why are u doing all these to urself? Ure disappointing me, i swear. Sighs, whn can u wake up? U dont know wht u want, anymore. Im seriously angry with u this time,

Im at aljunied! Sianzxc. Nothing to do, gg to slp sooooooon. I think ns people are dumbzxc. Including th sgts, damn damn contradicting. sighs, toodlezxc.

♥ 你说你, 不让我受伤.

2009-11-01T12:58:00.001+10:00

♥ I feel like gg back t school nd study.
♥ I feel like being th BESTESTzxczxc girlfr tht my boyfr nvr ever has, incase I didnt do well, nd I think im failing as one now, :x
♥ I feel like, throwing myself down frm my houseeee! I haven seen boyfr since, 1354610910616154264554 days.

Anw, here are th lyrics to th songgggs!

倒数

怎么我会说太晚了你不用送
其实我想说可不可以不要走
唱一段歌歌尾奏已经结束
突然我们都沉默你不敢看我
讨厌这样我们都有话藏著不说
你总是那麽处处在意我
越害怕伤害我我感觉越难受
你不懂我没你想象脆弱
热情结束以后冷静开始以后
时间开始怂恿劝深爱的人放弃
我不想倒数还能爱多久
不爱我请离开我

勇敢祝福以前找到幸福以前
我会耐心等候并重新适应寂寞
开始倒数开始忘记
知道你的爱你确定不是我

下一个周末会不会就各自过
渐渐少联络这样算不算分手
我会想念你亲吻你拥抱
但我不想欺骗我真实的感受
讨厌这样爱变质后谁都不认得
情人终究不一定变朋友
越相互关心著越加速疏远了
别触碰我在深藏的笑容
热情结束以后冷静开始以后

是不是从前我们太懒惰
让任性妄想反方向移动直到看不清楚
说出那一句谢谢你
眼泪突然夺眶而出快要不能自己
难很困难再这样说的多快乐

值得你的爱你确定不是我
选择了艰难的路走
我相信这样是对的

If you ever read my blog, look at all those words. One, by one. I dont want things to happen like, tht. Get me? I love you.

toodlezxc.

♥ Hate & Love, choose one.

2009-11-01T12:05:00.000+10:00

Its 10, Ive only slept f 2 hour plus, since ytdddd!
Shingzxc it manzx. Zzz, got waken up my boyfr this morning, at 6.41.
For wht?! To scold me, damn. Quarrel, quarrel, my momma come back, continue quarreling. Cb, cant stop one lohs. Must talk things till damn bad, thn can change attitude. Thn, frm super duper uber slpy, let him scold till now, also cant get back to slp. Haiiiiyoooo. Sickening lah, anw. Happy belated HALLOWEEN peoples! (:

Ytd was halloween, wht did I do? Hanging out with my girlfrs? Gg f a scary movie? Get boyfr out t acc me? NO!! I rotted at home, eating th cake & strudel, i bake, alone. It totally spells, P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C, right? Huh!? x3 Never once in my secondary school life, I missed halloween with my girlfrs derh leyyyyyy, damn sad lah. Thn in th end, cos of WHOOOOOO???? Someone who always scold me, nd reacts like my dad instead of my BOYFR, cos of wht?!! I SLEPT TOOOOO LATE, COS I WAS DOING MASK, IN TH MIDDLE OF TH NIGHT, COS I DIDNT WANT TO SLP, HUH!!?? X3

Anw, Ive been gg thru blogs, feels damn sad tht I hardly blog, nd no one takes notice of my pretty blog anymoreee ): Heard a song on channel V today, just now. Mmhmm, seems quite real uhs, th lyrics! I'll post it later, nd add my thoughts to it, beacause I know SOMEONE reads my blog. Heh, using his camp mate's phoneeee, I wna blog like last time, I cant blog like last time, ANYMORE ): I got no more, .. ME in me, anymore. People who knows me well, shld understand wht tht sentence means, no more smiley Lirong, no more gg out whnever I want Lirong, no more gg home whnever I want Lirong, no more gg shopping whn & whrever I want Lirong, its just not me, Im not me anymore. Help anyoneeee ): I really hope whtever I do now, really works. Instead of getting me more heartbreaks. Sighs, I really LOVE you, BUT I really want ME back, th girl u like, in th first 7 days.

You said Ive changed, indeed Ive changed, changed into someone tht is NOT Lirong. I feel so shingzxc tht I wna create an anti- LIRONG blog or grp or something. I hardly have anything in my life now, its just boyfr on weekends, walls on weekdays. Sometimes, its just fucked up, tht its like, WALLS FOR WEEEKS, my bestest of friends also cant stand me. I feel so sad f myself, its like.. You can nvr imagine. I really hope this is working out, f us. You can start seeing th change tht Ive done f you, IF ONLY you can. Everybody tht I know, can tell me tht this is not me, Ive changed, to someone you want. But you just cant see it, u just go on picking on me, nd adding things to it, to change me.

No praises, no surprises, no gifts. Just scoldings, does all ur ex-girlfr get tht too? Idk, but it doesnt seem so. I know th heartache breaking up with u, but is this wht I get f being tgt wiht you? Scoldings all th time on changing my personality, no giftts, no presents, no praises, no outings at all, no fun, no romance. Tag me on my tag board if ur someone who can do all this. Ty. Even robots cant live a life, thn u expect it frm me? Im really really imperfect, y'know?

Whatever, I can pull this off, right? I can! I feel like crying now, just fuck lah.

♥ { B } aby, get ready, get set, don’t go

2009-10-31T01:49:00.000+10:00

Ive been thru so much, in this 6 months with a guy name, Jerry tang ying jun.
In this 6 months, loads have happened. Sweets, sour, bitter. Fun, joy nd laughters.
Scream, shouts nd nasty words!

Nothing will show how much I love him, nd will still continue.
I know YOU reads my blog, nd I want u to know. This r/s will not stop.
We'll last, long long long long, alrights?! We'll be each other's last.
We'll give in, nd tolerate, nd love, nd change, for nd be with each other.

I hope whatever Ive said, will get into ur head one day.
I hope u'll archieve what u want.
I hope u'll do like wht u said, marry me, dote on me.

All these are frm th bottom of my heart.
I know I have alot more to say, I just dont express it well.
Im sorry. Im at the startin line for the rest of my life.
As ready as I’ve ever been, got the hunger and stars in my eyes.
The prize is mine to win

♥ p.s.
On one condition, you'll know how to love me th correct way,
takecare of me th correct way, hao mah?

♥♥ I'll be waiting for u derhs,
Signing off, ur dearest laopo!
Really really love you ohs! ♥♥♥

my smile is coming upside down.

2009-10-26T23:54:00.000+10:00

♥ ; happy sweet sixth month to me nd baby.

its 10pm, & thr isnt a freaking msg from him to me. sighs.

maybe he really cant contact me bahs, wht a bad sixth anni to celebrate. Maybe his ex girlfrs are mocking me ):

Idk. Haha. im just thinking too much, went to sch nd had great time chit chatting with th same few girls again. super much topic lah. Haha. Thn went home, nd be a good girl nd went to slp. Thn he called, but I talked to him in a blur tone. Haha.

I miss him so much, today was th only fucking chance for me to see him. Nd thn? His fucking sgt dont allow him to go ttsh. Is this th fuckiest thing on earth? I can feel myself exploding, but this time, Idk wht to do. I dont have him with me ):

I miss him ley.

Bring him back to me, hao mah?

F***

2009-10-24T00:41:00.000+11:00

Everything is just so xinku, he just dont get it.

was quarreling for th past few days ):

Said nd negotiate things for fucking 2 hours. Nd he said, 6 months just has to go. Nd we'll start afresh, haiis. 6 months ley. If i wasnt still loving him, nth of this sort will come out for my mouth. He just cant put down his guard nd trust me, because of his past, he says.

Ive been a good girl eh, didnt step out of my house th whole day today.

Need to go dl & edit things soon oh!

好想听你说说爱我
好想听你说说想我
这几天你有没有
曾经想起过我
好想对你说说爱你
好想对你说说想你
这几天你知不知
脑袋里装的全都是你
全都是你

You see tht? I missed u so very much ):

toodles, ):

2009-10-21T05:38:00.000+11:00

YOW! Im back yow! Haha.

Back to update MY blog, MYself!

Its been gg to 2 months since Ive touch this blog of mine. Haha. Omg, Im dead tired. Soooo many things happened, yeah? (: Good, & bad. Sigh, my boyfr is in his camp, at yck, slping now bahs? Tht pig of mine. How I wish Im thr, ):

Went out w him & his friends, kinda weird. But.. Had fun :D Me & another girl name shan was th 2 girls thr, & 4 guys. We chitchatted alottttt. Thn went over to baby's hse t play MJ. I stayed for awhile jiu go le, before they even started playing. Heard shan lose, poor girl. Heh. Disturbed alvin tht say, damn f***ing funny. Haha. Thn baby come pick me at 4, thn go hme slp.

omg, ppl! I need a job, tho Im waiting for interview calls, but!! Who wna acc me go find? Ive found few, just need to go fill forms! omg!omg!omg!omg!omg!omg!omg!omg!omg!omg!

Can someone help me?

I keep thinking bout my boyfr & his ex-s.

:/ How?How?How?

I'll be blogging tmr agn bahs!

toodles, ♥xoxo♥

2009-09-13T01:17:00.000+11:00

HELLO! (: Manman here to help SCLR blog againnnnnnnnnn! Haha, actually help them to post their neoprints luhs. Hehhehheh. I know I'm so nice. Anyway, needa thanks 姐姐 for being there for me today! However, she's not a good Mommy! ): But I'm a good Aunty. Right Anna? Haha! So yeah, enjoy the neoprints. BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

2009-09-12T01:38:00.000+11:00

Hello! (: Manman's here to blog for SCLR again! Mafan ah she! Haha, kidding. Anyway, today is 110909, JTYJ went inside alreadyyyyy! Sad! Today, 姐姐, his Mommy, Me, Ken, Cockroach & Botak sent him off. Yep. Hope he's fine in there. (: He'll be out soon I think, forgot the date. His brothers wanna know when can ask SCLR! (: Yup! She confirm know. Heehee. Anyway, 姐姐 is sad that he went in. Cheerups! He'll be out very soon. Uh huh. That's all I guess, I didn't spend the rest of the day with her though. Haha! (L)

GONEEEEEEE ALREADY! (: HAHAHAHAHHAAH!!

2009-09-02T18:28:00.000+11:00

Their first neoprint! (:

Triple dates neoprint! (:

Booby & Anna, Jerry & Shermay, Alvin & Manxz! (:

@Kboxxxxxxx.

Helllloo! (: Manxz here! Helping my dear 姐姐 blog, or rather upload photos! Yesterday had triple date! (: 姐姐 & Jerry, Me & Alvin, Anna & Bobby! That's all, enjoy the peeeeeeektures. Buhbyeeee~

lovelies

2009-08-29T13:47:00.000+11:00

♥; 13 days t count dwn ):

Im here t blog eh! Surprise, surprise (:
At tampinese, zzz. Came t visit meimei & shop for cute things.
Haha, spent so much money, :/ Im broke alr lah!

Cant wait for monday & tuesday ehhhhhhh,

♥; Monday --> Made w LOVEZXZX trip w manzxZ (:
♥; Tuesday --> Kbox w manzxz, banana, bibi & his "best gay friend"

RAWR! RAWR! So packedddd, my scheduleeeee! My boyfr is a very big bully, X.X Steal my wangwang, push my head nd throw my bag on th floor, I'll make him payyyyyy mannnnnnn! Irritating, eat my wangwang machiam FOC! Im gna make him buy one boxxx back! Haha. Disturbing meimei w her MALCOLMMMMM.

Hahah, nvm. Shld stop nw, meimei needs t find her mr. happy balls?.. Lololol. Manzx, text me whn u see this, my blogskin needs some changes!..

♥; Im deeply in love w a retard,
xoxo darling.
♥; byeee (:

2009-08-28T16:56:00.000+11:00

Hello all, Manman's here to blog for CHENLIRONG, SHERMAY! :D:D Her blogskins and all is all done by me! :D Credits to meeeeeeeeeeee. :D Yay, I love myself so much! (:
Finished all Prelims paper. :D Very good, and they left my house about half an hour ago. And, I'm so bored now. Okay, most importantly, SHERMAY CHENLIRONG LOVES AMANDA ONGHUIMIN! :D Bye~

2009-06-17T22:01:00.000+11:00

Here t blog, after sooooooo long.
Over at hubby's yi ma's hse. Come see meimei & help her with her things.
heh. Went ovr t tamp1 just now, with manda & ah girl.

Hubby's angry with me ):
cos.. cos.. cos..
I didnt accept his fs comment, but in th end.
I DID. but, he's still angry with me. Zzz.
So useless. Always make him angry )):
Sighhhhh*

2009-06-07T16:21:00.000+11:00

; WHATEVER MUCH. Zzz.

( Talk to me, if you wna know)
At jie's hse for th moment. Blog another day, bubye (:

2009-06-03T13:38:00.000+11:00

Hi im here to blog. Its F&N now, & im blogging, how smart.
Heh. :/

Not quite happy recently, been having so many problems.
Zzz. Never felt so pissed off, sad & angry at th same time.
Almost hit ken sia, on monday. So fxcking pissed.

bi, I dont wna see anything happen to you.

I rly wna spent more time with you.

I didnt mean to throw my temper & running away frm you.

but, I didnt wna hear all those mean words coming out frm your mouth.

Its class now, Ive sent you so many msges. You haven even replied one.

You shld knw your status now, dont dont reply me.

I need to know whr you are. Are you playing tricks on me?

SIGHHHHHHS.

RECESS IS OVER.

contacted lousy person during th time. Guess where is he??

AT HOME SLPING. THAT FXCKER. Zzz.

CALLED SOOOOOO MANY PPL JUST TO FIND HIM LEYS.

NEHNEH. HE LEFT TH WHOLE WORLD OUT. I'LL MAKE HIM CUI LATER ON UHS (!)

2009-05-24T23:47:00.000+11:00

& There's always that few people will always have your heart.

2009-05-23T01:03:00.000+11:00

& th things I do to remind you tht Im still here.

Haven been blogging, sorry for th worries guys! Hmm. Listened to this song & found th lyrics quite meaningful ehs. (:

I remember the times we spent together
All those drives, we had a million questions
All about our lives

I remember the days we spent together,were not enough,
it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up,

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait.

And the games we would play
And stayed out way too late.

I guess these are quite an amt of things I miss. But, I heard things bout you these few days. & it all didnt sounded nice. Hmm.
IJ fiesta today, you were supposed to be here. I cant think back on how excited I used to be. Hmm. Wait a min, Im still excited or elated, but maybe its just not for you. Spending a day happy / sad / bad is up to you. Kai xin guo yi tian, bu kai xin ye shi yi tian. So might as well spent your day happy.

Hah. I need to go home nowww! Internet's down so Im using sh's com (:

2009-04-26T03:54:00.000+11:00

my new masak! (:
Its kiling me . I swear. All my phone things are going missing.
Elaborate tmr. Im dead tired now. ):

2009-04-25T03:10:00.000+11:00

never felt so bad.
my heart's been wasted on you.
our memories are stuck on the tip of my tongue,
it tastes like death but sure was fun.
when your hunger gets the better of you,
and i cant do anything about it, really sucks.
ive to quit crying cause this is, "see you later",
im not really into goodbyes.
... and you're not even here to say that
"things are going to get better" ):

& So they don't understand

; & they goin' bye bye.

4 years. 2 approach.

None was left.

Kill me.

Im just too tired to be hanging out.

2009-04-17T16:44:00.000+11:00

YOWWWW !

a Chord's coming out with new albummmmm!! ~~~~~~
YAY! YAY! YAY! YAY! YAY! YAY! YAY! YAY! YAY!
Cant wait t get it. Love him t th core (((((:
WEEEEEEEEEEEEE ~~~~~~~~

Things have been getting out of hands recently.
No matter with fights or whatever luhs.

Nothings seems to be perfect these few days, & words liddat only goes for some relationship for me. Well, not exactly some, but only one. Mommy's being really nice to me except for daddy. Sickening him, he yelled at me ytd FOR TH VERY FIRST TIME OKAY! SICKENING. Okay luhs, I admit, cos I was homed late, but mommy didnt yell at me. Gosh. Damn suprisingly, HAHAHA. My attendance is wayyyyy better nowadays. At least better than last few weeks, agree?

Im having phone problems now. Zzz. Anyway, I'll be back blogging tonight, I guess. HAHA. Buhhhbyeeee (:

FAVOURITE SONGGGG !

回憶有些遺憾讓結局更加感傷我不願再去想你離去的景象

時間能否沖淡這難分難捨難堪我不願回頭看那些美好片段我不敢

好聚怎麼好散我試圖學會遺忘

你最後一刻淚流下我也哭的荒唐

*能不能再一次讓我把話說完

對你的愛我還放不開卻只能夠感慨

能不能再一次讓我的戲演完

結束了該散場話沒說完

你卻已經離開

2009-04-11T02:45:00.000+11:00

HEYLOOOOOOOOO

Here to post!
Ytd night was F.U.N !!!
Tgt with glenn & baby.
OMG. He can piggy back me sia.
MIRACLE.
I always tot tht his hands will brk or something. HAHA.
From talking, things became physical.
Its fun & all. HAHA

Went to Kbox today.
Was having soooo much fun with orelia, manda, anna & shuhui!
Gosh. Haven been singing for sucha long time.
&& its practically crazy whn we extended th time.
Went over to vivo & harbourfront afterwards.
Makaned & got some stuffs for myself.
Gna go study tmr & meeting baby on sunday !!
Weeeeeee ~

Lil baby's not over today, sadded.
Im gna go to bed, studying tmr (:
F&N test on MONDAY, I guess ):
I need MOTIVATIONNNNN !!

):

2009-04-06T23:25:00.000+11:00

HOHOHO !!

Blog! Blog! Blog!
I just came back frm meeting ALICIA (♥ ) & co!
Was studying trigo maths just now, at macs.
Going to go offline soon.
Went to see my old posts, loads of memories eh..
Heheh.

Hmms. Gna go study my graph for tmr's test !!
CANT FAIL! CANT FAIL! CANT FAIL! CANT FAIL!
Going to vivo & clarke quey TOMORROWWWW ((:
Cant wait. Gna get prezzies fr baby (:
For our second month. HAWHAWHAW !!

COUNT DOWN !
2 MORE DAYS TO 2ND MONTHHHH
3 MORE DAYS TO SENTOSAAAAAAA
4 MORE DAYS TO FRIDAY BREAKKKKKK

Im dead tired, so byebye.
Gna mugggggggg

2009-04-06T01:13:00.000+11:00

YOOOOOOOO !!

I better start blogging before my com crash on my AGAIN. Its th last thing I want, I swear. And, I swear Im gna get a laptop whn Im working, so fuck desktops. OR.. A better desktop. && I swear, Im gna married a computer genius that knws how to fix computer. Cos I swear, computers gna be part of our daily lives. Its keeeeeeeeeling me. Urghs.

Cine was a complete routine when only I makan at hongkong cafe. The food thr's like, WOOHOOOOOOO!! Went to get my bikini with JAS. We had our eyes on th same ones, thn I was hesistating if I shld get another colour ( which was, RED, BLACK, ORANGE ) thn, I made up my choice, && took BROWWWWWWNNNNN. Its so my colour, how could I give it up, right? & it goes sooooo well with PINK! Hmmm. Thn went back to tpy to meet ONG' MANMAN.

Went to reservice my phone today, damn sad. It was like, funeral.. ):

My phone's complete DEAD!! Dead, I tell you.

Whn the lady took out th back cover, handphone strap, memory card, it was like, my darling phone's 遗物 ( which means, the things that the dead left behind ). I felt so sad, my gawddddd )): The last thing that I did, was to cry. )):

But.. Anyway, time to go shop for new handphone strap. ((: (OR.. Stick with th same old one.)

EEEEEEWWWW )):

Hmmm. Received a super bad new, baby's gna go in NS on July 10th, 10th!! Its the worst date ever. && today's the worst day ever. MY GAWD. I hope tmr will be a better day, but.. Idts lah. Cos, there's maths test tmr & I haven finish my english letter writing. Its date due so fucking long. & tmr HAS english. )):

Sad to the max. ):

I need to go shopping soon.

Im really deprived of studying.

I need to go work.

I need money

( okay, wait it sounds stupid. Who dont need money? )

OOOOOHHHH!!

& did I mention I want a palaroid camera? 0.0

2009-04-05T15:00:00.000+11:00

Yo! Haven been blogging for th past million years. HAHA
Wanted t blog on 10 april. Great meaning on tht day, okeh!

How's my new blogskin coming? Dont it looks fantastic? I think it does, keh.
Its 12 now, & Ive been staving since, 30 mins AGO. Cos of ONG' MANMAN lahs.
Bathe bathe bathe, take so long. Will be going to cine to check out for stuffs for thurs.
WOOHOOOOO! Cant wait. I guessed will be blogging these few days. Hmmm.

Went to watch UNBORN with baby, glenn, shuhui, "chantelle" tht joker, shantinininini, anna bitch & ONG' MANMAN. Its was, HORRIFYING. But, overall was not bad excluding CHANTELLE's noise. She was directly behind me, kicking my chair & screaming & talking making all th remarks all. NOISY uhs. But very funny tho.

She squeeeeezed my property's face. Out of fear of th movie. Damn damn funny. We went to th toilet after th movie, she couldnt stop all her remarks on th movie, like how th girl vomit all. Damn funny. I swear. Another out again aight ? ((: Thn remarks got carried on as we went all the way back to tpy. & ONG' MANMAN was making aloooooooooot of noise whn we're in th train. Stupid & funny noise remarks.

Hmm. Im going off for now, FOR LUNCH! with, ONG' MANMAN. So goodbye before I die of gastric pain. Tata

2009-03-11T01:40:00.000+10:00

Heyyos!

Haven been blogging, have been thinking bout wht blog skin & song t change.
HAHAHA.
I just finish parts of my coursework, HAPPY HAPPY!!

Hmmm, birthday celebration's not decided yet. Zzz.
Jiejie wna make me puke on th celebration COS mommy wont be in town on my birthday, Zzz. She'll be at taiwan. Zzz t th power of shitzx.

Suggestions please, on whr t go & wht t do.
Im keeeeeeeling my braincells thinking of those things. ):
Im like, soooooo tired t th MAX, I swear.

Weeeeeeeeeeeeee, Im going t bed.
Wait, Im going t bathe first thn straight t my bed.
Byebye.

2009-03-01T20:29:00.000+10:00

Back frm camp yooooooooooooow!
Story's too long t be typed out. So maybe I'll elaborate another day. HAHAH.
Baby's over at my house staring at me typing this post. HAHA.
She's damn cuteeeeee. But sadly, she's sick )):
So is sooooo many people.

Camp's like really fun & nice.
Too bad it lasted fr like, 2 days 1 night.
Everyone was getting real crazy. HAHAH.

Chalet ytd night was like, fun ! HAHAH.
Tho th starting wasnt well, but slowly slowly, things went well til it rained.
Zzz. Raining spoils my mood. Espcially whn Im out.
Tho it sets a super good slping mood. HAHAHA.

Im feeling sooooo bad. Cos Im playing arnd with my boyfr. HAHAHA.
Making him say things I wna hear. Hehheh. Feel like changing blog song.
But thr's nth attracts me recently. Needa go update my half spoiled mp3. HAHAH
For study purposes. Whn you study, you need music y'know.
&& my phone's spoiled so here comes my half spoiled mp3. Hehheh.

every 5 mins i pull my phone out and look at it,

hoping that there's a missed call or a text msg recieved.

ive been doing so for the past 2 hours.

i am depressed.

2009-02-24T00:15:00.000+10:00

M-m-m-m-misschu ):

Helloyellomello.

Im finally blogging, HAHA. Yeahs, I knw. Im damn lazy right? HAHAH! Gosh. I just return hme frm SX's house. Spent like, 2 - 3 hours slping at her house. Her house has like, some slping spell on me recently.

My pig's been slping at hmr for th WHOLE ENTIRE day. HAHAH. Felt so weird leaving SX's house alone. Haven gotten tht feeling for long bahs? Hahs. Had so many empty cold stares all th way hme. Its just like, W-E-I-R-D.

I failed my freaking maths test by like, 2? Gosh, bby Im so sorry. )): I couldnt even sustain a fxcking expectations tht you had in me. I promise I'll study like, real hard. Im feeling soooo bad, I swear. Never so much in my whole entire life.

Camp's this friday & apparently my mom doesnt have th plan t return me my freaking phone. Urgh! Hmm, Ive been living a super healthy lifestyle called th phoneless life style. Maybe yall should try it too. Imma bout t die. It's been sooo long since I last see my pretty pretty phone )):

I was planning t use th black phone once its okay, but now? My plans are all ruin. Shittyzxcv. I'll have like, a super duper hard time contacting people now a days. URGH! I miss my bby so so much sia. Cant text him & all )):

Okok. To be good for my bby, I shall go finish my F&N thn, talk t him on msn & thn go study for bio. CANT FAIL CANT FAIL CANT FAIL CANT FAIL !!!!!!! ROARRRRRRR !

PS. he just said something rly sweet t me. & Gosh, my tears are on th verge of coming out of my eyes. I miss him so damn much.

Romeo save me , I've been feeling so alone.

they're tryin' to tell me how to feel.

This love is difficult, but it's real

2009-02-16T01:14:00.000+10:00

Hello bby, I knw you just finish reading tht post.

But, here's one for youuuuu ((:

IONLYWANTYOU \ / IONLYWANTYOU
IONLYWANTYOU \/ IONLYWANTYOU
IONLYWANTYOU IONLYWANTYOU IONLYWANTYOU
IONLYWANTYOU IONLYWANTYOU IONLYWANTYOU
IONLYWANTYOU IONLYWANTYOU IONLYWANTYOU
IONLYLOVEYOUIONLYLOVEYOUIONLYLOVEYOU
IONLYLOVEYOUIONLYLOVEYOUIONLYLOVEYOU
IONLYLOVEYOUIONLYLOVEYOUIONLYLOVEYOU
IRLYNEEDYOU IRLYNEEDYOU
IRLYNEEDYOU IRLYNEEDYOU
ILOVEYOUSOMUCHZX
ILOVEYOUSOMUCHZX
IMISSYOU
IMISSYOU

Cool right? Love you luhzxc bby ((:

Hawhaw, I adore myself for doing things liddat (:

&& Im talking to you now on msn. Haha.

Be shock now ! Haha.

2009-02-16T00:43:00.000+10:00

RAWR!

Finally here t update. Super lazy these few days.

Shldnt update much, guess yall wont wnt t know EVERY SINGLE DETAIL, right?

How's all of yur's valentine's day tyd people? Had fun?

For me, I had hell loads of fun luhzxcv.

Tgt with my dearest babyy & beloved Jasmine & tht winston.

Starting, I was feeling soooo bad, cos I let baby waited for me for like, 2hrs + ?

Super long right? OMGOSH. Bby, I swear I'll nvr everrrr let you wait so long, AGN!

WE or rather I received a call frm manda baby, asking us t g t MS.

No objection, so we went t take train. Before we went t take train, something stupid happened.

Jas & winston bought th mango smoothie drink frm koi & whn we wnt dwn t th train station, they told me & bby. Opps, we forgot abt this thing * points t th drink*

Thn me & bby was sorta quarreling with thm abt whether if it could be brought into th train.

In th end? They brought it in, like dumb onlyy~

reached MS, went t meet banana & manda. & their stds & some extra girl.

Took a photo & wnted t go off. But half way going off, sharon was reaching so we ALL went back.

Whn sharon saw her date, she was like, stun. Cos its someone she sees almost EVERYDAY.

Thn went off t somewhr romantic. Jas & winston keep taking photos. Damn annoying lahs, hahaha. Stayed for quite long till we went t clarke quay. WE WALKED T CLARKE QUAY, FRM MS. DO YOU KNOW HOW FREAKING FAR IT WAS? MY LEG ALMOST BREAK.

Talk abt soooo many things with bby. Haha. He said I think too much.

Makaned at yoshinoya. Super funny sial. Lazy t typed everything out. SO ask me, if you wna knw uhs. Haha. This post is damn damn long. Enjoy reading uhs, people. HAHAHA.

Bby is waiting t read this post now, so byebye people ((:

I'll update tmr, BAHS. Haha.

Nights all ((:

You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.

It's a love story, baby just say 'Yes.'

2009-02-10T01:12:00.000+10:00

AM BACK T BLOGGGG ((:

Back frm studying, actually, didnt really studied leys.
But a lil things went into my brain, I guess. Hahas.
Recession uhs, Ive got no idea wht t get for my beloved ones )):

Gotta go brainstorm for awhile.
Hmm, Ive got so damn many test coming up. Zzz.
chinese, history, maths, physics, bio & course work.
Dying luhzxcv.

okays, thts all for now. My freaking eyes are closing.
Byebye world ((:

2009-02-09T18:50:00.000+10:00

My throat dont feel well y'know?
I guess yall dont know. hehheh.

Anw. Im back frm schhhh. GV was like, th bombzxcvzxcv luhs.
HAHAHAS. Had so much fun today, tgt with th ong sisterszxcv.
Went mad & ran arnd. Run till I almost died at my own booth. Hahas.

Fell in love w leona lewis' yesterday.
Go check it out yozx, if yall have th time. Its niceeee ((:
Had some disturbance msg today, like, weird only~

I cant believe we're tgt.
I promise, if in th future we'll ever quarrel, I'll give in as much as possible.
But, you cant take advantage of tht uhs.
Promise me you'll nvr get sick of my cards. Because, I can only make cards & cook.
Ive got no other talents. )):
& If thrs anytime tht you find me doing things you dont like, do tell me alrights?
Babyy, promise me you'll listen t whtever Ive gta say in th future.
& I hope you can make time for me, Idw our r/s to fade because we dont always meet up.
One mre night, one mre day.
One mre day, one mre smile on your face.
I hope we're tgt because you rly wnt us t be instead of feeling bad for me.
If you feel bad for me, brk up with me NOW.
idw t hear tht youre tgt with me not because of love. I'll die.
I'll cherish you like Ive nvr did, I'll take as many photos with you as possible.
We'll have memories tgt.

lastly, Im going off t study now.
byebye all, maybe I'll blog tonight ((:

2009-02-08T22:29:00.000+10:00

Okays, Imma here t blog. & Im dwn w my last glass of greentea. )):
SAD SAD ME W/O BOYYFRIEND & GREENTEA. )):

Greentea's wht Ive been drinking recently. Fallen in love w it all over agn ((:
Hahahahs. Wasnt feeling well just now. But, am totally well now.
Totally forgot abt wht I wnted t blog, but anw, Ive gotten myself a boyyfriend.
A sweet & loving boyyfriend. CHOIKHINWAI ((:

080209 ; 22:50
It'll gna be our date. Babyy, I lovelovelove you ((:

I'll nvr nvr leave you, unless thr's a day tht you say you dont wnt me anymore. ((:
Im sooo happy for myslef. Thanks manda & anna & Jas. For being thr for me {L}

I'll blog tmr, Imma gna go do my F&N.
Sucha bummer. byebye.

2009-02-05T00:57:00.000+10:00

Heyyos. Imma here t blogggg.
Jiejie just wnt hme.
Had so so soooo much fun today. Its like, th lao yu sheng day.
Na & Jas came over, but sadly, na had t go off at arnd 2.45 like tht.
So she couldnt stay ):

If thr's another time, I'll make sure you stay & have so so much fun.
I was like, reletively drunk for like, 20 mins. Cos of my jiejie & jas lahs.
&& th stupid game. Zzz. Kinda fun, wnted t smoke. But.. Ive gta respect people uhs.
& sch's like shit, cos of stupid laoshi luhzx. ZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

purposely pick fight w me. Zzz.
Rather sick & tired recently, gta start my valentines card thingys.
I needa go shopping for jumper & whole set of sports Jacket & track pants.
Im damn tired recent, I suppose I said tht? 0.0
& I wna re-dye my hair. (:

But.. Im lazyy, Im a lazy baby, how? hahahahs.
Tired & dead. Tmr's 1 mnth, sighs.
byebye.

2009-02-04T00:45:00.000+10:00

Heyyos Imma here t blog.

Did so much this weekend. Super tiring.
1st month in 2 days. Gosh luhs, like fast only.
Im stacked up w homework, dying uhs.

Wnted t post th picture on how Im progressing on my present.
But, on a second thought, forget abt it.
Spent so so much during th weekend, but its a once in a life time thing luhs.
So, after everything was kinda fun, hahahs.

Babyy, glad t hear tht you'll appreciate.
Feel so cheesy saying all these.

Anw, off t maths & studies. Byebye.

2009-02-02T13:37:00.000+10:00

FUCKING DISSAPOINTING.

BYEBYE.

2009-02-02T03:02:00.000+10:00

Hello. Imma here t blog yoZXC.

Not much though, going off t make my present for somebody.
Hawhaw, some mood of me are kinda happy recently, some are not.
Idk whts wrong w me.
Spend so much money these few days, all on th art stuff.
I thank god tht Im not in art. I'll go bankrupt. Swear.

I just need a lovely night.
Th night I meet my prince. Hahahs, I know yall must be thinking, rubbish. Rights?
Ahahaahhs. Im dead tired luhs.

Byebye all, Iloveall ((:
nighty night night.

2009-01-31T14:14:00.000+10:00

Im here t blog in a sickly mode. Ive nvr felt so useless. Okay, maybe sometimes. But, this times too.. Hmm, I wna die ):

Anybody wna find th lyrics of th Rodgers & Hammerstein's Cinderella songs for me? They're like, th best. i missed my childhood days. Its th nicest cinderella movie, ever. its different frm those normal ones. Its special.

Though Im happy tht I found th title, but Im still sad. THANKS TO SOMEONE.

MAybe, I shld just fuck off & die. Byebye.

2009-01-31T03:14:00.000+10:00

Im so troubled today. Fuck.
Damn sad, SWEAR.

Ive been waiting for your msg for th whole day. If youre irritated w me, you can tell me derhs. Dont ever make me wait for you like tht, even though I know tht youre going out w your friends. You still can reply me one msg, right? I was worried sick lah. You feel happy jiu reply, not happy jiu dont reply. I wait for your msg until very xin ku leys. Nobody to ask me wait, yeah, but, at least a reply lahs. Like, I sent you 10, you majam reply only 3 horhs?

Babyy, if you dont have th time for me or us. Its okays derhs, tell me & let me knw. I wont blame you or whteverzxc. Its better for me tht way, at least I wont be worried sick everyday just waiting for your msges. Maybe, you'll be happier whn everything ends on th o5o2o9.

If I were a boy, even just for a days.
Maybe I could understand how it feels to love a girl, I swear I'd be a btr guy.
I'd listen to her, cos I know how it hurts, whn you lose th one ou wanted cos she's taken just for granted, and everything you had just destroyed. If I were a boy.

我会不说, 不想说, 怕说了, 也没有用. Here's th answer t your question, as in why didnt I tell you anything.

Went arnd w Jasmine today, to go find for all th art stuffs to make my "1st month" present, dont even know if he'll appreciate anot. Frm tpy, take bus go all th way to bras basah, thn dwn to taka for art friend thn to cine to eat. Do you know how fxcking long was everything? Hehs. Ive got 6 mre days left, I need to rush out everything. Shitzxczxc mannsxcvcxz. Thank god out of th 6 days, 3 days are holidays.

Im going t bed alr, Im dying. Blog agn tmr.

2009-01-30T01:57:00.000+10:00

你说的话在我心中生了根
爱得很深所以心很疼

记忆在我的心中翻滚
是不是每一个人都像我一样笨?

我等, 等笑容换成泪痕爱在崩溃的时候
比较真太多疑问知道答案又如何?

心痛比快乐更真实爱为何这样的讽刺?
我忘了这是第几次一见你就无法坚持
爱让人失去了理智. 放不开也看不见未来.

♥ ;我爱你, 只是因为你是你.

2009-01-29T23:24:00.000+10:00

heyyos~~ Here to blog yoszxc.

Today's suay to th MAXzxc. Started th day badly. All cos of tht stupid church mouse luhzxzxz, shift wht nonsense sit? We're all in single rows now, I bet we'll be noisier than, EVER. && Shift untill sherryn's bottle of thinner roll & drop on t th floor, drop nvm, it broke & cost so much trouble. & tht stupid church mouse still ask if sherryn knows her priority anot, so Zzz luhs. Thn, th rest of th days was just fine, I guess. English was th bomb~ After sch. it was a longggg story, had so much things going on uhs. Used so much kerosine till all of our hands kena burned. Fxck pain bodohs~ Hot hot derhs, touch wht, also pain. damn shxtty uhs. Print so many photos ((: Happy~

Gta do my coursework later, shitzxc. Help me anybody? Thank god Mr.F's not coming in for maths class. We're doing paper instd. Thankgod, so so much. Please pary for me tht I can finish my coursework tonight & hand it in smoothly~

♥ ; 原来你的心有空隙, 她才能轻易地占据. 我没本领, 我不争气, 假装不在意.

Gna go watch movie on sat, I wna watch so so so many movies :D

♥ count down ; 07 mre days t { 050209 } ♥
♥ count down ; 16 mre days t { 140209 } ♥

Dearest, your msg set my tears on. No matter wht your answer's gna be, done ever put yourself in sucha a agony & I dont wish t here such words frm you. I know wht kind of people I deserve, darling.

off t coursework. byebye.

Nights nights.

2009-01-29T00:33:00.000+10:00

Its 10 plus now, & half of my brain's dead.
I need t slp, but I cant. I got so damn many things to do.
& I dont even know whr & how to start.
I think Imma gna go sch & copy maths :X Hehe.
F&N will be rushed in th labbbbb ):
Like, shxtzxczxc t th maxxxxxxx
TIRED TIRED MEEEEE ):

♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥bayy ♥ bayy ♥ babyy.
♥ ; 我要我们腻在一起, 这样一直甜下去.

&& Im off t bed people. Before I die in sch tmr, AGN.
Ohs, WAITTTTTT, anybody's free tmr? I wna go study, but I dont wna go alone.
Free people tht I KNOW, text me puhleassse, if you see this.

♥ count down ; 08 mre days t { 050209 } ♥
♥ count down ; 17 mre days t { 140209 } ♥

♥ goodnight world & babyy.

miss me ehs :* LOVES & CHEERS.

ily bby ; 050109

nvr forgotten.

2009-01-28T17:55:00.000+10:00

Im here t blog YOWZXCZXC (:
Wont be a long post, I hope. Cos im rushing t bishan fr lerein & aleris ):

Today's kinda tired in sch, almost died ):
Imagine, you have 12 hrs of slp in like, only 2 days. & like, 36 hours of play & study, would you die? I would, & Ive gone through tht, TORTURE. Swear. Wnted t drop Mr.F's maths class t Mrs. kuan's class. But Mr. F say nooooo~ & yet, Mrs. kuan said ; lets wait till th end of th term. SHXTZXCZXC. Its like, end of worlddddd. Gosh. ): Maybe we shld have home sch-ling. Thn I'll be learning to play instd of studying at home. Opps? :/ Hahas.

如果我說, 愛我沒有如果.
錯過就過, 你是不是會難過
若如果拿來當藉口, 那愛是不是有一點弱
如果我說愛我沒有如果, 真的愛我就放手一搏
還想什麼 ,還怕什麼 ,快牽起我的手

我常說: 世界上最遙遠的距離不是生與死而是我就站在你面前, 你卻不知道我愛你.
我常說: 如果人類連愛一個人都被自己綁住那世界末日已來到, 不需要等到地球毀滅掉的那天

♥ ; 8 mre days to our 1st mth. Kinda excited, kinda sad. Half of my wnts it t come real quickly, th other half of me dont wnt. If only something unexpected happens on tht day. Lesighs.

xoxo, baby.

2009-01-27T19:12:00.000+10:00

Heyyos~
Haven been blogging for like, longggggg. :/
Anna's complaining tht my blog's deaddddddddddddddddd. Hehheh.

Its CNY people, HCNY yozxc.
Went drinking ytd, kinda fun & kinda loud.
Went hme abt 2 plus, cos I went t meet SOMEBODY.

Talked & laugh & talked & laughed.
Thn, jiu went hme lohs.
Bathed & msg-ed awhile jiu went off t bed.

Woked up this mrning by a lil devil of mine.
Roll & jump all over my bed. Zzz.
Bathed her, let her eat. Jiu go do my things alr.

I just realised, I haven finished my coursework. Zzz.
I dont even know wht to do, I absent queen uhs. Ahahahahs.
I shall go sch & find out. Pray tht Wed dont have F&N horhs.

♥; 我们隔得太远太远, 多喜欢你从来不会说, 多在乎你到底懂不懂?
♥; 等待, 是我为你付出的代价. 爱我的话, 要回答.我只等你, 等你一句话.
♥ ; 给你的心不要你还, 痛不要你偿.
♥; 爱你的苦不要你扛, 泪不要你挡.

Dont ask me why, thrs no reason.
We've gt only 9 days left. Wnt to cherish anot, up to you.
I've got no say in abt tht, you do wht your heart feels.
Nothing last forever, Im happy enough just t spent 1 month w you.

♥ x0x0,baby

2009-01-21T00:58:00.000+10:00

20.01.09

Rather fun , w jiejie. Bought. 1 max&more dress, 3 fox tops, 1 nf miniskirts, 1nf skinny & 1 black heels. Love thm all baby (:

21.01.09

Today's quite boring though. Did my facial today & finishing my parts of F&N hw. I dont plan to blog anything much.

Anw, Idk how you feel abt me, but I feel myself's losing mre & mre confidence in us, maybe its a game tht we're both losing. I dont like it whn youre doing this t yourself. You make my heart brk, & its aching. I told you mre than once alr, but you didnt care. So, I cant do anything. I tried & I guess I knw you did. We're both sorry, I guess. CJW/259

My hearts' in a dilemma, maybe I shld stop everything tht Im doing, waiting for your msges everyday, going & have fun w you everyday, listen t all th rubbish talks you have for me, checking on you everyday, taking care & make sure tht you eat everyday, though its been 3 days, I dont wna go deeper for you. Maybe, giving you up to her was th best choice. SSYQ/7797

It brks my heart seeing you sick today, i wish you'll recover fast kayzxc, dont make me worry for you no mre.

Im sure I'll forget these one day, I may even forget who Im blogging to today, Im too stressed up recently, super fucked up recently, & th best part, new year's coming. Woah, fuck. I cant cope maths tgt w everything else luhs, can die. Kill / stab me in th heart.

&& 姐妹没有隔夜仇 seems t be coming from me first, in th end, Im th one listening to it. It seems so near but yet its so far.

他说他很爱她
他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花
一切美得不像话

从朋友变成情人
她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底
真心溢满了甜蜜

时间看清一个人
开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人

太蛮横她开始悬着疑问
不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕

谁爱谁, 谁又流干了眼泪
谁后悔. 难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁, 谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎, 谁又该干脆离开

谁爱谁, 谁又能反反覆覆
谁后悔, 谁在忍受着孤独
谁了解, 他退出她孤独

~~爱得太盲目~~

2009-01-20T04:29:00.000+10:00

heyyo!~

Here t blog. But wont be long, cos I just kinda finished A LIL part of my F&N, it drained ALL my energy. Just a lil part, jiu can die. I cant finished th whole thing w/o dying. Swear.

Class is so so stressful nowadays. Damn shxtty can? sigh, I cant wait for nw year, at least thr's some brk in between. BUT ! I STILL have to do my F&N coursework during new year, super pffffffftttt, tiring siol. I cant cope luhs, I didnt have like, th best time in my life during class. Class = life draining hours.

Cant wait for sch to finish tmr, cos IMMA GO SHOPPING ~ but, its so so last min. Whtever, better than nothing. Today was "fun" doing nothing at my sis hse. Looking at kids running all around. I'ld rather spent th time at hme doing my coursework lohs, thn dont need to do like , NOW? I came hme arnd 9 plus & wnt to bed, woke up arnd 12.40 & going back now. I swear. I needa find a day & finish my TA for F&N oneday sooooon ~

Was msg-ing this particular person today. Its soooo ridiculous, I cant believed we both msg-ed in CHINESE for like, hmmm TH WHOLE DAY !? Gosh, I guess its gna be th same for th rest of th days ((: Hahas.

anw, Imma go to bed & have my slp continuedd~ byebye, Im to tired to type anything.

2009-01-17T12:31:00.000+10:00

YOZXCZXC, its alicia's bbq todayzxc ((:

Hope she'll enjoy & have fun today, cos she dont seem rather happy these few days.
Cut-ed my hair ytd by preston, at first whn I finish cutting I was ranting like, nobody's business. You can nvr imagine how picky was I lah, but its turned out totally different frm wht I wnt. But nvm, Im trying to adapt. If one day buey tahan ( which will nvr come, I pray ) ark all th way & go cut short.

I thought preston was like, playing prank on me uhs. It turn out so, so, .. SHORT !! Whn I tie up my hair, I wnted long pony tail, but end up ? Its th size of one hamster. Pffffffft, NVM !! Hehs, baked hell loads of cookies ytd luhs, for today. Hope all can be finished & it dont taste weird. (: Later go meet th ong sisters & th guailan soon kueh, so so stupid.

So, blog till here will do, I'll come back tonight & blog bahs, going to bath liao lohhhhhhhhs (: && get ready to go out *bigsmile* Happyhappy !! Byebye ~

2009-01-16T01:05:00.000+10:00

Haven been updating. Haven been living my life properly..

Haven gone shopping for new year clothes.

Just came hme, frm outside.

Was at phone shopS all th way.

Heard so much things thr, learned much things too.

I seriously dont know myself.

Went for GV meeting today. Did things w cardboard, kena myself untill like tht lohs ):

Heard so much things, I better start learning how to carry myself out properly.

not really feeling well, so nights babies.

2009-01-08T23:15:00.000+10:00

Sch's kinda alright today.

Bake biscuits for F&N today.

Class's alright. Didnt do much.

Went for Global village meeting today.

Thn, jiu go NTUC w Jas to buy things.

Thn, jiu go find yvon & alicia & shuhui.
Did quite a lot of things.

I like th way you look at me & talked. Thn, we'll stare at each other for seconds & minute.
I promised myself, today will be th last day I see you. But, I'll be seeing you tmr. For another purpose, I might hurt my own feelings or maybe even yours. I pretty sorry for that. Its th only thing I can do. Ive got no choice but to do it. Im at my wits end alr, I rly got no choice. I know, you'll nvr read this, but its okays. It can do to console myself.

♥ 对不起就这么离开你，这一次就当是我任性。我不要等待的结局，因为它将会是另一个伤心♥

2009-01-07T23:42:00.000+10:00

For some reasons, I love this picture.

Heyyo, here t blog.

Just came back hme frm dinner w mommy.

Before tht, was tgt with my 38, keaii, alicia, khinwai & alvan.

Chitchatting abt sch lahs. But I did some of my maths hw ((:

After sch was tgt with orelia. Hehs, kinda fun. Taught sherryn how to do her chinese.

ACTUALLY, today was suppose to be a unpleasent day. But, people managed to perk me up

Classes was alright. PE was kinda fun, but I hate th running part.

I dont rly know why you do this to me.

I dont deserve your friendship afterall.

Idk how to deal with you.

Nothing's forever. Including you.

byebye. I finally get wht th others are telling me.

2009-01-06T20:05:00.000+10:00

WONT BE BLOGGING FR TH TIME BEING NOW A DAYS.
HMM, TAG BOARD WILL STILL BE REPLIED IF IM ONLINE.
NOT FEELING GOOD THESE FEW DAYS.
SO YEAPS, ANYTHING TEXT ME WILL DO.

我永远都不会忘记我们的歌。
也不会忘记，我们在一起的每一刻。
现在各走各的，互不相让。
已想试着再靠一次你肩膀，才发现距离那么长。
我不要等待结局，因为它将会是另一个伤心。
就算我爱你，我还是爱你。永远不会变。
若你爱我，你会等着我。

没想到会是你，让我如此失魂。
是这样陌生快乐的牵挂，让我在这一刻才明了我有多天真。
想给你全世界，一刻我都不愿等。想要你的心，却怕不能成真。
因为你有你的人生，我有我的旅程。
在前方还有等着你的人。
你会哭会笑会爱会伤神，你会不会敲上我的幸福门？
虽然你对我的认真，我也感动万分，你终究不是属于我的人。

How I wish time could turn back , I'll rather I'll not know you at all . If only It could turn all th way back till last year . I would have do things to prevent myself from being like tht now .

if , you'ld care ; you'll approach me .

if , you loved me ; you'll do something to th both of us .

if , I had 1 wish ; we'll both have th same wish .

if , I nvr liked you ; we would be talking now .

if , you'll ever know this ; we would be in love by now .

IL-edY.
BYEBYE ；对不起就这么离开你，这一次就当是我任性。

2009-01-05T01:51:00.000+10:00

Im back frm th wedding dinner of my dearest shuyi jiejie.

She looked fxcking pretty, but her husband jiu abit derh .. Hmmm.

I hope, she & him will last forever, cos they've been tgt for very long liaos ((:

&& For "you" ; Thanks for th post. I think Im gtting wht youre trying to say.

Maybe, its really pointless, I dont even know wht Im rly doing lohs.

Maybe, youre right. I appretiate you answering my calls knowing tht,

all Im gna say is how? how? && more how. I rly do appretiate, for all your

advices & rubbish answers. Hmm, thanks for all th talks on th phone & all lahs.

Youre so so lack of loveee, hahahahhs. Hmm, I hope you find your girl soon lahs,

& last long ((:

Tmr's sch, wish me luck people. I dont rly like mondays. Its, stewpidddddd.

&& anw, I spent like, 3/4 of my time at derek's shop. Very, very sian.

But, at least, whn got no customer, can disturb & play lahs. Hahahs.

I saw so so many cute lil kids today, theyre like, EFFING cute.

&& at his shop, can laugh & play lah. They QUITE funny. Quite, niah. hahahs.

可惜爱不是童话故事,

不能够永远依赖着王子,

再难过其实只剩两个字,

我怎麽忍心为难你解释,

我想女孩子最贴心的是,

让爱的人选结束的方式.

X0X0, Lirong ; 那天和你傻笑着认识是最幸福的事

2009-01-04T12:34:00.000+10:00

Okay, hello. Imma here t blog.

Ytd, hell loads of things happened. Suppose t meet Jas in th morning.

But she didnt turn up, so I meet Manda instead.

After meeting her, we wnt arnd talking & walking.

She was like, damn sad lah, so poorthing y'know.

Luckily Jiahe walked past th place we were at, thn go find him ask him to find Jason.

Like, LUCKILY lahs. His reaction was like, funny & shocking. Classic bodoh!

After she wnt hme, I wnt t meet Anna, thn we went eating sweets ((:

While we were eating sweets, suay suay see Jason & Jiahe AGAIN.

Anna wna sign CRC, jiu ask thm help her sign lohs. On th way thr,

SUCKED, but th starting quite funny lahs, cos Jason's bag was slanted

thn we all help him make make all, thn after tht, NOBODY cared abt me

AT ALL, like I talk also no people care sia. Sadded.

Thn I felt like, I was pregnant bodoh, stomach pain untill no one's business

All th way t PWP. Fxcking pain sia.

Took cab thr & took cab back. Hmm, thn I shall not elaborate th later part.

Cos I was tgt w Khinwai & mak. They are ALL suan-ing me.

But I was rather fierce, so Im sorry all ;P Hehheh.

Sent Shuxian hme liao, jiu wnt hme. W 2 body guards. Hahahahahas.

Thn go make my food & makan.

Makan liao, jiu talked on th phone w khinwai.

Talked abt so many stupid things lahs. HAHAHAH!

Bathe liao, jiu wnt to bed ((:

Woke up this morning, & couldnt go back into slp.

Im sucha fxcking light slper now. Sianzxzxzxz.

I needa go slim downnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn! 42kg is so far away frm me )):

2009-01-02T23:51:00.000+10:00

except tht, our form teacher's a super mario? Hahah

After sch was heeren w Jas,

talked on th phone. Cried like shxt.

Idk why, cos he dump me in th sense tht, my feelings wasnt thr?

Idk wht im talking abt.

But I know, I cried lahs. Thn after I cried, I didnt smile for quite a while.

Untill... I saw this 2 pairs of heels at Zara. Freaking last few lahs.

But Nvm lahs, window shopping.

&& to you! If you fucking cant stand me, thn tell me.

Im not so ba dao till,

I'll cling on t something tht wnts me to let go.

If you wnt me to let go, fine & so be tht way.

I dont wish t cling on t someone tht,

doesnt reply my msg, doesnt answer my call

& dont even wna care abt me.

If you got no idea, I have feelings.

Im not dead.

Because of you, Im half dead.

I hope, you can just fuck off & die out of my life.

Before anything happens to me.

If you gt no idea, I still have my N lvl t do.

byebye!

2009-01-01T23:36:00.000+10:00

Sch's starting tmr.

Not really looking forward actually.

Kinda disapointed actually.

I aint sitting w anybody tmr.

I waiting f morning call for tmr.

Imma gna go pack bag f tmr.

Meeting anna & Jasmine at 7 tmr,

I dont rly feel like blogging.

so, bye.

很想哭，哭完无助。

你终究不是属于我的人。

2009-01-01T03:40:00.000+10:00

Today was, like FUN! hahahhs, anw FIRST, happy new year peeps ((:

Met manda early in th morning jiu go FETCH sharon tht dua pai girl & thn went vivo to meet some sisters. Tiffany's soooooooo cute today, & meiling became my ah lao. Hahahahhs. Super funny joke. Anw, thn wnt back to tpy after eating. Wnt to enter, thn crc thn enter AGN. After waiting fr manda to eat finish jiu sent her hme. Got hell loads of things happened in between. Thn jiu meet people go count dwn. Took 143 to twn & wnted to go give Jas a surprise. Thn all of us wnt at th wrong timing.

Saw her & she was crying like SHXT! Scared th hell out of me & th others lah. Winston was at a side. She cried till th eyes swollen, super poorthing. Anna brought her to wash up while me & winston had a lil chat. Haiis, everything's in sucha mess. )):

&& some FXCKER used my name on th SND blog. Fxck you people upside dwn, stupid. Zzz. Spam, nvm still make my miah siah so chao for wht? Thn, dont dare to put your fxcking name dwn. I fxcking didnt do anything lahs. Screw you lahs. Dont ever let me know who th fxck you are. I'll fxcking make sure you get screwed bodoh.

Netword's sot liaos, cant call out lohs. & Im talking to th stupid brendon NOW, Zzz. Spoil people's mood lohs. & he's damn rude & lousy, dont reply people derhs.

曾以为我见过所有爱的可能

这一刻才明了我有多天真

想给你全世界一刻我都不愿等

想要你的心却怕不能成真

因为你有你的人生我有我的旅程

在前方还有等着你的人你会哭会笑会爱会伤神

你会不会敲我的门

虽然你对我的认真我也感动万分

你终究不是属于我的人

byebye, baybeeeees.

2008-12-31T03:09:00.000+10:00

my point of posting another post here is ... :

IMISS TRAINING LIKE, HELL!

I miss all th jumping & stunts & all th nonsense. I miss all th back aches, all th stress I give myself doing a front pike & pike & not going forward & scaring myself tht I'll die after doing it. Though GYM's th last thing I miss, but I still miss it like shxt )): Please give me my gym trainings back nxt year. Pretty pretty puhleasssssse ): I miss pulling sherryn leong tht bimbo ass to training or even to help her cover up whn she dont turn up. I miss having training w sharon ; Jasmine ; Orelia, w only me & sharon doing stunts. && warm ups are th most whining thing EVER. I can rmb my past few years in GYM. All th torments while Jame's still teaching us. Competition jumping on mats. Whining & begging James letting me into sch team & quit w/o saying a thing. But I loved myself for working hell hard t get into sch team. Though I was like, freaking bad in frontpike & backdrops. Buttttt... I DO get praises fr my face drop & sit drop half turn aights!{till I spoiled / "broke my elbow} && Sharon's whine whn we're still in sch team. She & her backsomer whines. But now, she wna learn more. I wna learn more TOO! Please IJ, bring Tramp back, dont ever ever take it away. Though I hate some people in it, but still, I love th sport it self. I swear I'll bring my attendence up & everything. Please dont take it away frm sch, I realise my heart fr this sport. ): I rly rly love tramp, hell loads.

2008-12-31T01:49:00.000+10:00

Fxck off & die lah. Want th girl you love be always w you at your side. Fxck off lah. Zzz.

Anw, Im hmeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ((:

Today was suppose t be study day, but study awhile jiu go bishan liaos. Wnt to Val's house w anna & abigail! Super alike lah, th 2 of thm. Anw, stayed for a longgg time jiu wnt to abbie's hse . Cos she wna go put dwn alllll her presents. Played w her dog, jiu wnt off to J8 w her eldest sister & her. Abbie wnt t meet her friend, while Val acc me & anna. Walked arnd, everywhr was like, DISCOUNT! Forever liddat derh lohs, Zzz. Quite a few things caught my eyes. But I think, by th time I got th money liao, th clothes jiu gone liaos. ): && my fxcking thumb nial breaking, super shxtty )): && we wnt t find abbiie w her std & one of th friends. Super funny lahs, th both of thm, super cute too ((: hahahahahhs.

Sooooooooooooo many spammers on my bloggg. Sian, but they only tag .. & diediediedie, I also dont know got wht use. && hell loads of unreadable words. Full of time, got no whr to spend, so they spent it at my blog ((: Appreciate loads people, but yall will be kinder if yall dont dirty my tagboard. I dont wnt to go allllll th way back t see my friend's tags. Ty ((:

anw, tmr might be count dwn IF my mommy let me go. But th afternoon's tgt w manda & sharon & both their dates. Goodluck sharon for your date, last long if yall gna be tgt ((: No worries!

byebye babies!

2008-12-30T01:31:00.000+10:00

Alohaaaaaaaa~ Im here to blog yo!

Gt a no life spammer spamming at my blog now, how retarded can he / she be? Sighs, I dont have th america time to play w you kiddo. Hehs, if you wna say, pls say something logical. Being stupid & saying all these, is useless. Hehheh.

Met Jas & Anna today, followed thm t cut their hair, so tempted lahs. But Im having my extensions on, unless they know how to cut lahs. Hahahahhs, stupid girl, blogged on her own bog abt us at manda baby's party. Retarded onlyyyyyy~

Going out w Manda babe on wednesday! Yay, missing her alr :X Tmr going to study w anna bitchaye!! Yay Yays, Im gna go study hard hard, thn can go out on wed to play like I deserve it. (: Im outta my mind for somebody. I guess, hooray, its been 7 mth plus, I dont know if I shld continue a 8th or even longer. People, give me some suggestion, puhleassssssssse.

你知道我要给你怎么样的小任性

你知道我要给你这样的臭脾气

0932313 我爱你是不是你真的没开机

有没有看到我传的短讯, 是否应该删除你的记忆?

byebye, baby.

2008-12-29T03:01:00.000+10:00

Im super tired now! Damn, I wna dance so so badly nowwwwwwwww. I miss my dancing partners & friends. Shxt, I need t meet thm soon t go dancing, hahahhhs.! I miss thm loads. Hearing damn lots of techno & dancing song, I needa go slim dwn. People, wna dance jiu meet w me man! Text me puhleasssssssssse. Tyty!!

Today wnt t find jiejie & her new born baby, its so cuteeeee but a lil toooo tiny luhs. & watch teeeeeveeeeee, watched th cheetah girls 3, not very nice leys. Th starting say they going t shoot movie, in th end, come out like, shoot mtv, totally no link.

I'll continue watching vids & buck up on my dancing, hahahhs. byebye. Loveeees <33

♥ ; 谁不为爱伤痕累累.

2008-12-28T01:47:00.000+10:00

Im here to blog! Just came hme frm Manda darling's partaye, overall was not bads luhs. Except got one part, its so fxcking hot, thn I went dwn w manda & sharon & prissaye. Super hot, go & find mandaaaaaaa's boyfieeeeeeee. He quite disiao luhs, kinda funny.

Cramp's fxcking killing me. Shxt! Aye, byebye luhs. I gtta get th makeup off my face & put mask for bed & call valerieeeeeeee bfr she dies of emo-ingggggggggg, byebye.

*Im freaking sacrificing my watching show online time t go acc you, Val! You btr be thankfulllllll!! Hehheh. BYEBYE!~

2008-12-27T03:40:00.001+10:00

♥ 天若有情；天亦老；天外有情；谁知道。

为要分开伤了心会有多少个人

记挂一个人一生

曾经很上心才觉得吸引

就算天空关了灯前路未灰暗

世间再缤纷

他都很决心预留着甜吻

新鲜的恋爱和日子比赛终极又是分开听见都感慨

那个要暂代都请不要来不志在

谈更多恋爱未来亦难再

一开始非爱不可

如像最末离开过尽管最后没结果

世间偏传闻渐多预算无论对错
年轻得无须怕什么你若快乐请抱着我

她爱他，他却挂恋着她。
她爱的他，已死。
{人死，不如心死。}
但他发誓，从此不再爱别人。

2008-12-26T16:22:00.000+10:00

♥ smoke drink die, baby.

heyyo! Imma here t blog.

Quite moodless still, Ive got no freaking idea why.

But, Im having a fever now.

I feel so sickkkkkkkk. Kill me puhleassse.

Im so fxcking moodless & useless,

Im forever crying, its super shxtty lahs.

I'll blog agn later. Bye.

说一千遍我爱你也都还不够

就这样不贪心我慢慢地走

只要有你陪着我再苦我能承受

相信你给的承诺我等候

2008-12-26T03:21:00.000+10:00

I feel so fxcking bad now, uber sad.
Will anyone make me happy?
stupid tears.

2008-12-25T03:15:00.000+10:00

Anata no koto watashi wa ima demo omoitsudzukete iruyo

Ikura toki nagareteyukou to

Im by your side baby itsudemo

BABY BOY atashi wa koko ni iruyo

doko mo ikazu ni matteruyo

You know tht I love you dakara koso

shinpai shinakute iindayo

donna ni tooku ni itemo kawaranaiyo kono kokoro

iitai koto wakaru desho?

anata no koto matteru yo

Album no naka osameta omoide no

hibi yori nanigenai hitotoki ga ima ja koishii no

AND NOW anata kara no denwa machi tsudzukete ita

keitai nigirishime nagara nemuri ni tsuita

atashi wa doko mo ikanaiyo .

2008-12-25T01:51:00.000+10:00

Im back yo! For blogging, its gna be christmas soon in a few mins ((: MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL! & b'cos its christmas, th network is freaking slow, I think its jammed up, stupid. I cant send my msges to all my love ones ): I have to resend agn & agn & AGN, Im abt to die. Its forever, send failed, Fxck th stupid network luhhhhhhhs, Zzz.

Went to shuxian's birthday Bbq like, 3 days ago, kinda fun luhs, cos of Glenn & Khinwai, they made like, hell loads of jokes luh. But everything wasnt happy whn B**GH** turned up, party spoiler, cos of him I had to like, isolate myself to th sheltered place. Stupid person, but luckily thr's people thr to acc me talk. Walked arnd th beach, talked on th phone, was rather fun though. I cried :'( Sad sad, but was okay after a while. Talked till arnd 12 jiu walked alicia to get drinks for th others thn jiu take cab go hme liaos (:

Had rather fun talking on th phone ytd / th day before. Hahas, Imma changing blog songggg, sick & tired of my this playlist now. Anw, Im sickkkkkk, super shitty lahs, fancy being sick on christmas eve & christmas :X So many people tht I know, is sick nowww, stoooopid.

I think I'll blog till here, byee (:

就算轻轻地呼吸
心还是感觉痛
没有你的日子里
我变得好脆弱
轻轻一碰
仿佛就要飞走口

袋里的双手
曾被你温柔紧握
布满思念的空气
该怎么去摆脱
天灰得好寂寞
快乐悲伤被你左右

说一千遍我爱你也都还不够
就这样不贪心
我慢慢地走
只要有你陪着我
再苦我能承受

说一千遍我爱你也都还不够
有一天我
总会看见幸福的彩虹
相信你给的承诺
我等候

*my mommy just stole my chocolateeee!! ): Stealer.

2008-12-20T03:38:00.000+10:00

heyyo heyyo!!
Imma here to blog! Im away frm home currently. Sianzxzx, suppose to stay here till th 21st, but sadly my auntie fell sick, ): awws.

Playing with th stupid webcam now, hahahahhs. Look super tak glam bodoh! hahahahhs. Gna watch type twilight tmr with my another's ah yee! hehehehs, yay yay. My nehneh's small enough, but it's gna turn smaller cos I lie on it while using th lappie just now. Zzz

Its 2 in th morning & its super boring, so I'll blog another day okays (: byebye .

2008-12-17T00:52:00.000+10:00

Th 3 of us (:

th "mouth" ! can yall do it? hehes, :P

smiling with th mouth!

th pinkish red tongue girl, (:

Th oldest sister & me (:

hellohellos!

Just came home, from my whole day outing. Uhs, freaking tired, slpt so late ytd night yet woke up so early today :X woke up arnd 9 plus to go bathe jiu head to manda's house to help with her makeup. Sianzxzx, chit chat & talk for like 1 - 2 hr plus? Arnd thr, thn I head off to watch movie! Hahas, caught BOLT tht movie. Th hamster's freaking cute & tht cat, very funny overall.

Went for steamboat buffet at SUNTEC afterwards, for dinner. Super nice, had laksa & herbal chicken for soup base. Not ba ehs. Had beef today today, tasted fabulous, dont have th stupid cow stench at all! Super surprise, first time trying to consime beef. Talked loads with my aunties. Now I have a confirmed job next year! Though its like next year, but I have it like CONFIRMED. Th desert thr's is like, FAB!

Anw, anw thts for today, Its too boring if I continue blogging downwards.

byebye! Love yall~